Seeing the SPADE

I think I've seen it vaguely last December but refused to look at it.
But now I'm seeing it again....some telltale signs of unhappiness at work.
I feel my energies are getting wasted on the ff:

1) lobbying for things I should rightfully have
2) solving problems I didn't create
3) attending meetings which do not even need to take place
4) pretending that I can do more than I really can

I waste my time on the above in return for:
1) not being able to keep to my yoga routine
2) not having time to do my studies
3) delaying other dreams
4) doing unfocused, mediocre work
5) having money in my atm

So the solution is.... find another to be able to keep #5

iPoetify

A some body commented that perhaps I do poetify. I claim that I do indeed :) It's my way to view things from a different angle...one that I am mostly fond of doing. I guess I am not one to objectify when I don't need to and instead I tend to find beauty when I have the time to and try to capture it in words which may not seem truthful at first. But that is what poets do--use codes and symbols to represent reality for it can simply be such a bore just to state facts..... or even see life as a result of mere consequences to one's choices and actions.   Sometimes it wouldn't hurt to see life's events through some kind of design or pattern and connectedness which may not necessarily be results of mere choices or consequences, but rather as matters of chance and coincidence to waste time  on to even wonder how or why. And so in the midst of life's toils, I care to put on my multi-colored spectacles...hence iPoetify.