RP to R.I.P.

So I have spent approximately 2 weeks over the summer plus 4 weekdays to do the 4-6 page research proposal Murdoch Unive asked of me, which I shall likewise use for my IIT Bombay application.

What am I learning so far:
-to follow 1-day routines of working on portions of my RP
-to curtail on what should be curtailed during bbbreaks
-to really SEE that RP is all about posing arguments as to why this research is worth doing
-more on QR=p 85-98 of QCRM 2nd edition by Lindolf and Taylor, 2002

How about self reflections--
-that all of my self driven explorations and on-my-own research pursuits outside my PhD curriculum studies coursework--has led me to this
-that I have taken at least 2 new steps as to how RRL should be and that is to use my voice and not hide behind merely weaving prior researchers' works
-that I really need a mentor to work on my quali R methodologies--so far I can only learn it if it is done this way: show me the final product/research then let's draw out all these QR methods of data gathering and analysis
-that I have yet to see a book on QR that is instructive and done in the manner I have mentioned above
-that the reason why I am still here pursuing this proposal for a PhD is because of this state of disequilibrium--how to choose the design, instrument and method of analysis for this kind of research I would like to do

I would want to finally have a final submission of this RP so I can get a moment's R.I.P.

Still here and not giving up on me....

Research as a Purifying Act

I finally gave my IELTS a-GO, after 2-3 day review! So now I'm back on track to look at my  Rproposal=it's 1/2way done and meaning there's still a 1/2way 2go, hence a pause for a few musings.

While a few HDI's require either a Statement of Purpose  OR Research Proposal, others require BOTH. A friend looked at my draft SOP and advise against specific declarations but then a part me, wishes to claim failure as part of my process as an adult learner. A part of me wants to test whether in fact a HDI shall accept my for who I am--a kinda late bloomer, but for very good reasons, hence have arrived at this point when all bets, all that is left of me I shall gamble and lay out on the table for this thing called theses=research=pursuit of knowledge=and now, a single purifying act I must hurdle for that is the challenge placed before me. A big part of what I have hurdled is accepting who I am and how I think and work. And all I ask is one HDI to see this and take a chance on viewing me as a prospective lifelong learner.

I have always followed a different track when it comes to my studies...so why should my PhD be any different? It has taken me a longer amount of time to get to the questions I really wanted to ask...and for me to delineate the tasks and processes required, so that "what is unknown may be known".
My formal studies, doctoral level at that became only instrumental to establish a school program in my basic ed life and accomplish publications and university tenure in my university life. These publications are symbolic codification of what has been my length of practice---action and reflection on educational, school and classroom ideas, largely curriculum driven: roots of curr integration, teaching Fil and teaching SS in an integrated curriculum, sample SS inquiry units, dual language programs.  My conference paper presentations represented evolving multidisciplinary connections: open schooling+ K12 learning+platforms and pedagogies for online learning=basic education curriculum+education technology +ODeL  alongside my explorations with qualitative methodology. All these took place from 2004-2010= a good six years I do not regret to reach this stage when I can say, "May I have a rightful place and space for ME to be selfish and give this PhD one last try?"

With this realization, also comes a clearer view of what I would like to study:





Next comes  2 paragraphs to justify why this is worth doing. This has to be convincing to my panel or prospective adviser.