4....3...2..1 Earth below Me

The thought of dying is getting to be truer than ever these days. A brod and sis passed away. Anytime I know it could be my parents' time or even mine. 

A terrible headache awakened me the other morning. A strange experience it was. As Vic held my hand I started to consider what if in fact I am sick of something. Hmmm, can I be given a bit of time to say thanks and say a few wishes to come true.

I thank YOU for my Zambales, Tarlac, Cuyo, and Romblon experience.

I thank YOU for those boat trips.

I thank YOU for ALL the kids of The Builders' School.

I thank YOU for the book and the new grant and the luxury of time to engage in research. 

I thank YOU for all the travels & adventures on Earth.

I thank YOU for the fun we've had since high school.

I thank YOU for all the love and care, for holding my hand in so many ways.

I thank YOU for listening to all my woes and troubles, little joys.

I thank YOU for all the help in my dissertation, finish it for me in case I no longer can.

I thank YOU for reminding me to give you a hug and a kiss. It felt really good to stay a while on your bed and be with you both to express my wishes for my children. I thank YOU for U.P. and my education.

I wish for YOU to have some time to enjoy having a new partner for a change, have time to do your PhD & travel more. I wish for YOU to have relaxed time to read your best-loved books. Please keep your hair that way, too.

I wish for YOU to become the Guidance Counselor you want to be, and have  a happy married life you planned on having while at Grade 3.

I wish for YOU to continue taking care of your father and your brother. I still wish that you consider studying & settling abroad then come back once you are more prepared to handle the Philippines.

I wish for YOU to find the love you can live with and grow old with.

I wish for YOU to complete your thesis and see all your sons grow old.

I wish for YOU to have another child because I know your son will enjoy having a sibling.

I wish for YOU both to live longer so you can still be with my children and enjoy their jokes.

I wish for YOU to see your daughter graduate.

I wish for YOU to achieve your dreams and make your parents proud and happy.

I wish for both of YOU to keep strong.

I wish for you to live long enough to see my son's wedding.

That was ALL I could think of for a few minutes.

Yeah, I think can say goodbye if I have to.