Last 2014, I decided that I simply cannot escape the idea of God's presence in my life because it is in fact true that once you are a child of God, you are always a child of God not because of who we are but because of who he is....now if only I matured in the Christian faith in some way I wouldn't even have to be doing that search at this time of my life. It seems the journey has been quite different in my case.
And so year 2015 was spent mostly asking: how else I could have done better, or how else to stop myself from getting angry, getting sad due to unmet expectations of people you try to help or any kind of change you'd like to happen, how else I could have said things only to be met with either antagonism, closemindedness, ignorance or arrogance. Exasperation has left me with more questions: is there anything good that will come out of this? And the answer is yes, if only I simply let go and let God. I almost missed the point.
And so I end year 2015 with hope and humility. These people and events to my mind both have given pain and pleasure but all for a good reason and that is for me to see that I will never lose hope on people for as long as I live. I WILL simply have to try to see the best if not learn to forgive people for who they are for who I am but equally prone to human error. There are things I can no longer control or change or perhaps this is me saying the choice is not really up to me and therefore it should be ok.
