Showing posts with label Teaching Presence. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Teaching Presence. Show all posts

Thursday, February 20, 2020

A Neat Kind of Nitpicking



Two days after my full draft submission, I was a cockroach with 6 antennae. I was daydreaming= up and about thinking of 6 creative work/ paper ideas:

> TP study on learning support

> PhD journey auto-ethno Part 2 & Part 3 - HERDSA 2020

> a paper presentation based on my thesis

> website rebuild for my Scratch Paper

> 1 more blog for the Transformatives of Collab 2020

> an ethnographic study with research fellows of Collaboratoire 2020

HERDSA 2020 abstract writing  was top in my dropdown list.  But then, did that alongside other things: trying a not- the-usual chocolate cake recipe, chatting with the Transformatives, & blogging. So out came a so-so abstract.

Gaaash, Aleta. Can you be more focused and systematic?  Guess not.

Days later, I decided to sched a consultation with Dr D and try things differently. So what if, I compare my scores with the expert abstract writer-reviewer. Why not try to practice giving comments on my work, as if  I'm giving feedback to a student.  Again, compare. Neat!

As usual, things went un-recorded, tsk tsk. And why does the un-recorded leave me with mowwwhhh food for thought :)  What I witnessed is a nitpicking of the Doctor kind. Didn't realize how 'oc-oc' the process can be.

I remember saying, "Go ahead, just do the rating, no need to be nice".  I ended up quite amused with the nitpicking because he really went sentence by sentence, then for a few ones, word for word.  The automated-grammar-guru was still at work of course. He still found a few lapses despite me running that abstract through Grammarly. For a while I thought, "Is that what my examiners will do with my thesis? And if so, does that mean I should at least do that first to my own thesis? Omg, I haven't done that for some sections of my chapters!!!"

Anyways, the co-ratings for my abstract are here below:

Relevance -             a = 4     d = 3

Description -           a = 4     d = 4

Contribution 2R -    a = 3     d = 3

Clarity of writing -  a = 3    d = 4


I felt at some point, the ideas in my abstract got too 'scattered'.   Dr D noticed that I could have driven important points more directly.
And that one way to do that was to look at the wordings/ key phrases in the actual description of conference themes, then use those in the abstract. Hardly did that before!

Tried to visualize the phrases he used: 'slap their faces with it' (or was that 'drive it down their necks'? or 'ram it down their throats'?). While listening to those Englishingies, my quick translate was: saksak mo sa baga nila!  

That was almost 1 hour of a pretty neat kind of  nitpicking. But, I must say, it was quite tiring. And I'm just 1 out of the 3 or 4 more consultations for the day. Only a wizard can get those done. Glad that he's the wizard and I can just be a hobbit (for now).

So this is how it feels like to be at the receiving end of nitpicking. That was like Kuya Roger receiving explicit instructions from Teacher Aleta to hang this child's artwork this way > if that didn't work, do this > still not up to my liking, do that. Or while with Teacher Ron and reviewing his letter to parents > change this, change that. Or when Teacher Mai sets the agenda for our meeting > this goes there, this goes here > a better flow of discussion to make sure we don't overdiscuss. Gahhhd, that's funny. 

Seriously though,  now that I'm seeing the scores, I should be ready for a borderline yes. Awwwh. But hey, a No from HERDSA only means that I can relax and just enjoy the conference (in return for not entirely enjoying ASCILITE Dec 2017). Imagine getting nervous for a poster session a few days before my flight, instead of spending cozy time with E&N or A&A? That is if I can even get my study grant (extended version) approved in the first place.

Now the actual poster is another thing of course....hmmm.




Sunday, January 26, 2020

Zoom 332057716 in My Mind


Pre-Zoom Moments in Time

Been getting all sorts of help from Batman for quite sometime.

Like Yr 1, I got feedback on my RRL. The feedback/ comments came across as cautious - quite polite. Very helpful. Very unlike other experiences of getting feedback or having no feedback at all.

Yr 2 - an 'impression type' of feedback on a new section of my RRL on Blended Learning which resulted to a concise paper presentation at ICODEL 2018.

Then came Yr 3
What came were actual notes on my creative work as I was widowing the how-to's of an auto-ethnography. Got some APA-Grammar guru galore corrections. Niiice. Of course, that left me so glad for the auto-ethno happening through an actual sharing at the PGECR symposium and that instant #31 on the menu as a freebie.  I had to put on hold completing the whole paper to remind myself that my dissertation writing is the TOP priority.

A great part of the 1-1 consultation experience is that I now have an artifact of an actual handwritten set of comments and tips on my written expression as an HDR learner me.  That's my antennae responding to my need2learn-how2mentor future research advisees. The comments let me see the bigger picture while the nitty gritty corrections looked like decorations on my white sheets of paper.

Sandwiched in between months of being on-campus was time well spent with English Angel. She went very gently and carefully through my presentation of Findings. She reiterated that writing requires deep thought - and she showed me how to look at my own work then explained her comments. Smooooth.

Topic sentence...support with details...give examples.
That's like my husband's grade three lesson on main ideas and supporting details. 
Then there's more:
String the phrases/terms to sustain the reader's attention.                                    
Handhold your reader through your work.

Got some good stuff done :)


Back2DrD
Now came the iLibCalendar. Let me just get those slots!

In return, were kind & encouraging words about the whole process of doing a PhD.   Perhaps it was to cushion what else  was there to come. A bunch of pressing questions. I'm getting repeated reminders to be explicit with my thesis arguments, and tougher questions to make me think beyond my chapter Discussion. This is to make sure I hit those WIIFM = so what's in it for me.  That felt like an 'Oh my, did I even learn anything!!!' Perhaps I was but there's too much writing to do for me to even stop & notice. Movin' on.

The rewriting of my discussion sections were brain demanding. So the writing was an act of decluttering before the holidays to give space to rethink and rewrite.

Tried those links to Learning Object Repository. There were 2 videos: one on Writing Arguments and another on Original and Significant Contribution. Tried to do those on my own. But...hmmm, the big BUT...I can't get my linear thinking to work. I  beat my brain cuz I find it hard to think with graphic organizers or box-type tables to enumerate: Main Idea 1...Supporting idea 1.1....1.2. ahhhgain.

A part of me was wanting of an actual demo of how-to-actually-do-that graphic organizer but in reverse. Can somebody just extract it from my thoughts and currently muddled written expression and then show me how to actually rearrange it, delete it or whatever it takes to clean it up! My brain is a mess. But hey, just kept at it.

What I did was work on a different table to thresh out my significant contributions. Did 60 percent of those.  At least I found a way to do my Chapter 8 = Conclusion.  For the other rewrites, I switched back to my usual winding road of writing, rewriting, chopping, moving, rewriting, trimming.

One time, I remembered printing my written work. Cut them up to resort it so I ended with this strip getting to this paragraph/ section and that strip getting into another paragraph. Just like how it was like helping  a few grade schoolers sort out their story parts back in the days when I was doing writer's workshop with  Grade 2 -3 children. And those sentence strip sorting/ comprehension activity to help LD kids make sense of story events.  So I guess this is me, helping me.


Then came Zoom near-end of Year 3 
I say Oh-EM-GEEE. It was like a daydream unfolding and somekind of flashback ala cassette tape recorder.

> A flashback
Me doing my research on Teaching Presence (TP) of live synchronous ESL classes of the best teacher at WizIQ. I reviewed and analyzed transcribed recordings of  Dr. Nellie Deutsch @work, all the way from Canada and online with ESL students from different parts of the world.

> A daydream
I was wondering whether I can record the scheduled Zoom session so I can remember what I needed to do for that section of my Chapter 8. But my daydream led to a set of questions and a drop-down list of teachers I can study on TP, but this time on learning support, the academic writing kind. Imagine that: from Teacher Tin of the Integrated Literacy Support  (ILS) program of Builders, to Amor and Victor, learning support teachers of the Beacon Academy then to higher ed  QLD university Research Support Team, mainly Dr AT the LA & Dr D the HDR-LA.

Wooops. That had to STOP. Back to dissertation writing.

Done with a few chapter clean-ups. So now let me be.


>The OMG
I forgot to request to record the session. I crammed my work for Dr D's review, hadn't had breakfast and just had to turn on my PC from my daughter's work table cuz living room was getting too 'ashy' from the Taal Volcano's phreatic eruption. Ashfall baga = Alert Level 4.

Here goes...
- I'm seeing a page of my work with a  portion ready for comment. so thanks for the screenshare feature
-  the cursor moves up and down -  as if checking for consistencies from my chapter overview and that section
-  the first feedback is now taking me through my own written words...first few ideas in my paragraph then midway then last -- as if checking for the flow of thoughts and ideas, and whether my words capture those and deliver a coherent message
-then comes the routine of   good points.  here comes the segue...points which need more thought.  that's the formula for all teachers esp. among K-12s.  but wait, there's more...
-he focuses on points to work on and HOW 
-he is getting beyond  my stringing of words and gets inside  MY ACTUAL THOUGHTS = a seesaw of ideas, he goes. I smile at myself because of the play of words and because I got caught in action (omyged, I do that seesaw, and still at this time,...I vacillate, hesitate...can't be doing that on Chapter 8, right? I have to be surer than sure)
- then comes explicit instructions: possible solutions in 3 ways - MUST think and choose in other words.
- then it gets invasive - like yeah, go for it. The moment I've been waiting for!!!

I use invasive in a very good way because since November, I'm feeling like a doctor doing surgery on my own writing. That was how I described my dissertation writing to Dr. L of LBlock.

It's getting bloody, the blood is spurting ala Kill Bill, not from an enemy's neck, but from my work onto my pair of googles. CAN SOMEONE ELSE JUST TAKE OVER.

...Someone does, again and again. Whether it was for my Endnotes, my APA, my grammar, my LimeSurvey, my graphs, my concerns, my questions. Walang puknat, walang tigil.

The help feels like a bottomless pit, and this time, while seeing my work flashed on the screen, I see a small step forward -  I am actually seeing somekind of flow and good closing sentences with my paragraphs which go with comments = Good = gudt.

Post-Zoom Thoughts
The Zoom experience was quite different from the other consultations.
  • must be the aid of technology -videoconferencing tool which makes the experience a bit more multisensorial (minus the olfactory); or
  • could be the timing of explicit skills instruction unfolding before my eyes
  • triggering thoughts on Iteration 2 of a teaching presence study, academic writing support kind but thinking of a different methodology this time.
In my mind, I'm trying to 'profile' what could be common among these 'gifted teachers':  their backgrounds, their givens, their values and mindsets which they bring to the table, their metacognitive awareness,  how they've managed to self-learn and how knowledge or expertise are passed on/ imbibed by fellow teachers.

Let these gifted teachers do what they do best then have their auto-narrative while I do mine = Part 3.  This can be based on actual experiences of being mentored = the what and how I'm learning how to mentor my future students' academic writing that is if in fact all the advises and feedback are translating to concrete improvements in my academic writing.

> A fastforward
From Prof V to Doc J = me THIS 2020, not as an Ethyl Alcohol branded product on a grocery shelf, but as a research supervisor to a former student with a Hollywood sounding screen name =  Angel America who is now re-entering under my open university's MA Social Studies Education program. I wonder what stuff I'll be able to deliver, using my own bag of tricks, a more positive mindset and thingies I've picked up from here and there at my Australian university.

Now we'll see whether I truly gained something more worthwhile from my educational experiences at my Australian university.






                       






Sunday, January 19, 2020

Grace in Full Circle 2x around

Teacher Mailin, Teacher Vic and Teacher Amor are top of my list as the best K-12 teachers I've encountered in 3 decades of my teaching life. Right below them are five more whom I've been most fortunate to observe and immerse with, some whom I think are actually 'gifted children'.

Teacher Mailin was our humble Goddess=Dyosa. Such a reflective teacher who taught me to feel my way and trust my instincts. She was a very good listener, esp during case conferences when we each teacher had to say something about the each child in school. At School 2, she observed me clinicking with E.  I didn't have a whole plan written out, just a structure for the session and scribbles on my pad paper. It had a brief word list and sentence stems. That was it. She still went on to observe for the first time, I got honest feedback about my teaching. It was something I never had from School 1 = 6 years of teaching.

Later on she took chances on me = 5x.  While I was still an uncertain teacher of LD kids at School 2, she assigned me J, my first clinic case. While being a teacher to the barrio at Romblon, she gave me K, my first case of home-based remedial reading instruction, to demo-teach remediation while handling a special child, behavior mod included.  Back from my teacher to barrio stint, she threw me to a pilot class of 6 male, pre-adolescent ADHD  students to do behavior modification, small-group kind.

Later on, she took me in at School 4 to set up the Phil Hist Culture and Values program = Social Studies + Filipino SL classes within the PYP program. At School 6, she got me to do the title Learning Coordinator. Again, a first, something I had to live up to.

I will always remember her for the pineapples she shared with me during my first few weeks at School 1. Of course, I grabbed one cuz food is food. Only to find out much later on who SHE IS = a woman, alta de cuidad, with a bodyguard.

So being with her much later on in life, as part of the School 6 leadership team made me appreciate her constant evolution as a teacher-leader.

Teacher Mai = Harkness Discussion

Now comes Amor - me Amorrre former housemate with Miranda, fondly called as Teacher Motie.

More of Victor's colleague before she and I worked together. Most OC teacher I've ever met who will have all  her school supplies sorted and labelled in a certain way. She has the knack of instantly coming up with guides to help any student extract content and find meaning, then all the writing guides. It gets too much sometimes, seeing here spend 100% effort.  She handled the toughest adolescent/ high school cases, with care and with compassion and strictness. No bully can get their way with her except me. Hihihi...I always drop by her office to grab this and that. Or demand something, somethat and she delivers.  Such a fast learner.

Last but not the least, a fave of mine - Victor. How do I love thy teaching? Let me count thy ways.

First time I overheard him speak to his class, I thought he was a femme. The S comes out as sssss.
His pinky finger moves towards the ceiling while holding his utensils. His table manners, impeccable.

To be continued....

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

The Place of Teacher Directed Discussions + More


I thought I knew what this meant and how it occupies a rightful place in any class. For one, it's a technique I normally do with my grade schoolers to drive them to certain points. And ok, I admit that whenever I have a clear agenda in mind of a MUST KNOW from my list of WHAT-all-Filipino-children-MUST KNOW-&-understand about Social Studies, then I resort to this technique to test what my students know.  Also when students are immersed in their project based learning, and on their own or mostly and collaboratively with their peers, I feel that I still need to do short lectures just to see whether my students are in fact getting what they should be getting from our classes.

And after all, in college, it's the staple technique of most UP professors. Though most have bored me to death and I end up going back to the handout or readings to do my self study just to nail a passing grade, I have found myself actively engaged (but silently) with very few professors, and professors who  do it really well, namely: Dean Acoymo (300 level course, Educational Philo class),  Dr Manzano (300 level Curr Studies courses), Sr (or Dr) Priscilla Mananzan (100 Level Educ major course) and Prof Casambre (100 level Speech Class). Their styles are quite varied--ranging from narrative ones, theatrical ones, relaxed ones, and the talsik-laway-but-so-what-Im-great type. The sexiest of them all is Dean Acoymo (he reminds me of Winnie the Pooh bec of his shirt; such a fashion model with his colored contacts... so masculine and yet so loveably and admirably gay. what an aura!)  What I love about the experience of being at the receiving end of their teacher-directness is this: I got a unique experience out of their lectures. Their discussions have triggered thoughts, daydreams, questions, and more questions---and so in my mind, I validate, I wonder, I ask-- I come out of it challenged and moreso inspired. Even in online learning platforms, lectures and conference presentors, Im sure there's quite a number out there, effectively delivered through YouTube or Podcasts, and live classes in MOOCs or online conferences.

Now comes this Harkness Discussion at The Beacon Academy which made me question teacher directed approaches. Mailin very much believes in it. And I admit, I was a bit of a skeptic (though I never get my skepticism in the way): like what's the diff? what's this western construct? or some recycled idea?  isn't HD just like small group discussions with guide questions or something like opening up minds and ideas or having students freely respond to a story through minimal prompts or minimally invasive teaching?

But hey, because I am eager to try, I did try it. And I must say, it spelled the difference in the way I listened to adolescent learners. HD is truly one decent, research based classroom practice among an array of student driven teaching approaches.

My prior experiences and mode of thinking as a grade school teacher is to actively listen to my students share or discuss.  But then while doing so, I  have a dropdown list--are my students getting this, this, this and so on? I have clear measures on the knowledge and understandings Id like to hear at a certain point and time. If I do not hear it, then they omg they haven't learned it :( In  Harkness Discussions however, my brain behaves differently. Though I give a set of guide questions, I end up actively listening, but gradually, I am learning to recede and let go of my guide questions because I am after finding out these: what am I learning from my students? what am I getting about how they are learning? At this day and age, and in the context of learning the IB way, IB trained teachers can just assume that students can spill out K &Us cuz after all at the MYP and DP level, it is a given that they are critical and conceptual thinkers. Though that is largely a given, what  is mostly is HOW they use it and arrive at it--the process of constructing knowledge is always a wonder to me and to my mind, one way to really know the process (not the product) is to immerse in their thought processes represented by their spoken communication.  HDiscussion is about recognizing the learner's process and most of all their insights and their new found knowledge from their own perspectives.

Having been convinced of HDiscussion in my Year 1 at Beacon, I therefore ask: does it mean we throw Teacher directed discussions out the window? Well, Id be thankful of course. For one, while I do find teacher directed discussions as a respectable technique, it doesn't mean I am competent at it…especially when handling topics I am learning and relearning. Lecturing is the least of the approaches I resort to here at Beacon because we do want things largely driven by students...also because Id rather do online discussions than F2F. Online discussions  (and even live online ones) allow me the time to organize my thoughts in writing before I spill otherwise I can be winding and jump from one idea to the next. Or even let's say I give myself time to do my ppts and notes, by the time I face the students, sometimes, I miss out on important details. Yikes! But then I still had to risk  doing so  because my History class openly said they do want lecture-discussion types. It's a way for them to validate their understandings. Then again, I just sense I have gaps in the way I do my teacher directed discussions. When I use it to facilitate giving feedback, wrap-ups or to introduce a unit, I'm a bit ok. But to do a sustained one for about 30-40 minutes or even beyond without my students getting bored, that remains to be my challenge. Hence, I do hold an admiration for gifted Winnie-the-Poohs who can do it successfully.

And also, a part of my brain holds on to these:
  • I believe in the diversity of teaching practices as long as it is aligned to a specific philosophy and learning theory.
  • I also think academic freedom benefits the students most because in the end, immersing in the experience of learning from different types of teaching practices (and not necessarily the prescribed ones by an accrediting body) makes one's learning holistic. 
  • This is also me saying with a strong and solid learner presence and self regulated learning expected of a largely IB driven student population, in the end, learners will always choose to make something out of their learning AND NON-learning from a diversity of courses, teachers, classmates and teaching styles.
  • And this is also me saying that because NOT ALL learners are that way, there is a place for explicit skills instruction and teacher directed learning...discussions and lectures included.
  • And to me HD is not EQUAL to teacher-directed discussions or lecture. I am for preserving HD  for how it is defined and researched by its worthy proponents and instead search for a commonality=different means to a common end we can all benefit from.
Therefore I think a better school in the end, is the one that skillfully combines these: learner driven, subject driven and teacher driven approaches. As it is, having a Harkness Discussion in its purest,  research based sense ( More on HD here ) is great and should still be balanced off with lectures which are just as great, when done verrrry effectively and selectively. It is one good way to demonstrate the quality of thinking through, or some kind of consciousness raising especially if a slice of our student population need to see divergent thinking vs/ and logical, systematic thinking at work.

And so this request to learn from a peer. Itago na natin sa pangalang Eomer. I just happen to know his resume (hehe), and teacher evals by students (double hehe). So I know,  he is more experienced than I. If it were a choice of a social scientist (Eomer) vs a self learned social studies teacher (Eowyn), I believe the social scientist is THE teacher to have in any high school. Therefore I kinda felt so relieved to know that he'll be teaching the Hist 12, students I once handled. It also means I can rely on an I&S co teacher anytime.  And Im just as curious about what makes this teacher tick and what  I can learn from these 'ticks'--which is really the whole point of a peer learning session.  (And btw,  Eomer comes across as a secure and relaxed person. I recall him going straight to the ALT with a question or 2 about one in service output we had to do. He nailed the DP History course aim in his poster.  I never felt I was an LC around him  and that I was just any co- teacher around him. So yeah, I can level with him anytime and need not second guess my being blunt or straightforward.  And who gets to witness an Anthro major teach these days by the way...the only Anthro teacher I know passed away so Eomer must come from a  rare breed of intellectuals....a historian is common, but  an anthro major with a teaching experience in history must be a great blend)

After the observation, this is how I really felt: "Kainis...kainggit...bakit ba hindi ganito ang HS world history teacher ko!!!" As usual I felt as deprived a student that I was back then.  And now asking: have I deprived my Hist 11 last year...my gahhhhdddd!!!

These are the reasons for my envy, btw:

1) This teacher embedded his discussion in an ongoing narrative. He was just like telling a story which is what makes History attractive. And you can see JW completely attracted to the topic.

2) The source analysis was placed in a non intimidating and natural context. In his ppt are curated photos, paintings, stats, and he would just spill historical tidbits here and there. (Yeah right Aleta, and your source analysis was so textbook bound due to the required COPVL of IB which I had to do by the book!!!) 

3) The teacher modelled a way of thinking through history--moving from past to present--global to local. His content knowledge was very much intact and that is why he can model the way to navigate the knowledge and understanding expected of world history topics.

4) The I&S completely surfaced but subtly--an interplay of Econ, Culture, Geog and Philo. And this was, again, done skillfully and not something forced as THE facts one should know or arrive at like how some teacher directed discussions can turn out to be.  Though I am able to comfortably do that among my Gr 5-7 students with the amount of concepts and knowledge I have, doing this among the higher levels require mastery (and experience in the manipulation) of content knowledge to be able to do the integration skillfully. And if in case he disagrees that he has mastery of such knowledge, then that only means, he must have the gift of teaching (yes I do believe in this classification having been around all types of teachers...there are the gifted types, now whether you are born with it or acquired it is matter of debate)

5) The Criterion A wasn't left out at all. Key terms, people and events were all part of the narrative---the historical details in support of the big ideas were clearly there. It was good to witness how an MYP I&S class provides the breadth needed for a Hist 11 class which requires an in depth  examination and closer analysis of WH topics. 

AND finally (oops back to my LC hat), as a teacher observer I didn't feel this teacher was out to demo-please me at all. Yes, I did get a sense of teaching-the-pakitang-gilas-(at gilalas)-kind during my stint of  teacher observation modes in some job. Eomer didn't come across as a sage on the stage (like how Sandel can come across or how some whites are in TEDTalks or an all knowing, saksak-ko-sa-baga mo-ang-values-o-views KO). He was not out there to mold you rather let you consider a manner of thinking or perspective. He simply came across as a teacher who does love what he knows (like from the 19___ teaching days), the act of finding out  and  freely shares what he continues to discover and access as a digi-migrant among our digi-native youth. 

Hence, there is a good place for teacher directed discussions, only when done effectively. (And not doing either or effectively IS worse, haha!)

I now have arrived at somekind of reappreciation for two approaches @work.

BUT, here's decluttering  noise 4me:

I therefore conclude, there is more required to run a high school class of a range of adolescent critical thinkers...even the silent ones like GM had his head up the whole time and not even an NB pulled a test question/ remark.  This means in the PCK of things, the CK bears more weight as a starting teacher in any HS, and the PCK or PK can later on follow. Which only validates the fact that what should be licensed in a BSE 2B teacher is CK more than pedagogy. And the fact that among teacher volunteers for HS, it is more advantageous to get BS/ BA grad rather than an Educ grad (a key finding in  teacher training among UP teacher volunteers in public school).  I therefore think TBA must find value in the BSE or BS major of teachers because the PK and PCK will surely fall in place.  The added MA Educ provides the frame for theorizing and reflection. Without that  BS/ BA Major in a discipline, the MA Educ may not hold water. This is me putting on a teacher education hat (can't help it).

Of course, I am  not one to be envious 4ever. Good that I am also a teacher-learner  (and a most fortunate parent) who can celebrate in the realization of having a co-teacher who is obviously most capable. Lastly I am simply gladful that we have this kind of teaching in our midst. In the end, it still is a good blend maybe of my bookishness-follow-the-DP-Guide manner to preps HLs and his au naturel. But I dont think my strategies will always work, esp for SLs.

As to whether I can translate or put into action what I learned from his classes is something I need to chew on. Can I just practice among Gr 7-8 students (and not DP where the stakes are a bit higher)?  I now have a new experiment to look forward to :)  X=pure HD  vs  Y=HD + lectures but the concern would be related to examining learner presence, and qualitatively.







Sunday, February 8, 2015

Diego + Verm= BIOMODD in my Brain

Reposting fr 2009
http://www.biomodd.net/lba2/updates/blog/diegovermbiomoddinmybrain

My Session 1: Artificial Life Forms
The first time I worked closely with Diego was in last year's Cultural Committee for the Sunduan 2008 of UP Open Universtiy. He really is a wonder boy. I honestly told him that I hope my children will grow up to be just like him: brilliant, tech savvy, caring and healthy. I find him to be a global Pinoy in the real sense of the word. I also admire the fact that he is gay: people who have a great capacity to be themselves despite the odds. They plunge themselves into the Arts and have the benefit of getting into all kinds of pants! Getting to know Diego through conversations about UPOU, life and love was a good peek into his brain and how he thinks. He would almost always expound on an idea by drawing from theories out there and fit it in beautifully through our exchanges ( all these as we fondly talk about our common topic of interest: xxx). 

I learned that Diego was fortunate enough to be schooled abroad, not just any school but an IBO school, which fostered intercultural understanding and respect through a rigorous interdisciplinary, inquiry driven curriculum. Diego's gifts must have been honed well in an international school of that caliber. He does demonstrate attitudes of responsibility, tolerance, compassion and care ...all of which are part and parcel of student profiles and learning outcomes advocated by the IBO schools. 
It wasn't a surprise that Diego worked with equally brilliant individuals from around the world. So the first time he mentioned something about Vermeulen (whom I fondly call "Verm" in my brain but say Angelo F2F). I just got kinda curious: http://www.angelovermeulen.net/ Uhmmm, good looking guy but so what? Interdisciplines + Verm. Interesting find as these are adults working collaboratively, perhaps products of schools such as IBO. Their works show evidence of criss crossing boundaries of disciplines. Imagine that: art + science + technology +ecology. What an interesting blend of perspectives and expertise! Moreso, what of the collaborative processes in the midst of all these.

My experience with interdisciplinary curriculum and integration is only at the basic education level in progressive schools I have worked with. My understanding of this educational idea evolved from my interest in doing Social Studies differently for school children. It all the more deepened as I was able to work in an IBO school in the Philippines for six years before getting into UP Open U. Alongside doing work for UPOU, I run a small school where I managed to transplant all these curriculum ideas from lessons learned over the years. Throughout my classroom practice and research, I have observed that programs grounded on these ideas genuinely work at the grade school level but I've always wondered how it can happen in a tertiary level class. This has also been a cause for concern as a parent-teacher-school owner. I need to make sure that my current investments with my school children will not be put to waste in some kind of traditional tertiary level institution. Working with UP Open University gave me a little hope that it will indeed be an  institution of progressive and dynamic teachers who can accommodate, if not model these types of thinking and doing among students.

Hence when Diego opened invitations to attend a course set up by UPOU and the Bio Modd project, I grabbed the chance to actually see Diego at work...for how does a beautifully blended and interdisciplinary-brained person work and teach?

Consciously, when Diego was lecturing, I was wearing 2 kinds of thinking caps: that of a student and that of a teacher: a teacher’s cap to cull and outline the flow of ideas and discussions in my brain, and a student ‘s cap to think and engage with the rest of the group. There we were one afternoon at Diego’s cozy apartment: Sarah, Vanni, Julius, Habs, Be-an, Leo and I. I was pretty excited to learn anything scientific. or artistic and anything around it or beyond. Diego allowed us to state our purposes: I came out of sheer curiosity and the will to be inspired. I was curious about the group process and the manner through which Diego will facilitate this through a merging of ideas. Of course I didn't admit that I was a Diego fan. 

Diego started with reviewing major concepts drawn from science and earlier lectures which tackle few issues concerning life vs. sentience vs intelligence. Apparently these were discussed I think in one of the earlier sessions with Verm: augmentation, simulation, mimicry, substitution, extraction, description. Once in while he would draw ideas from the group but mostly he allowed us to journey with him through ideas and thoughts pertaining to the emergence of life where we got a chance to review a few science theories and concepts related to the features of life. What I find amazing was how he used these as springboard, translate these into something else through samples from art and technology. He really is an instinctive teacher--teaching from perhaps the best way he was taught. There I was with my brain following all these in spirals. How I love thinking in spirals and the challenge of making all sorts of connections in  moments of disequilibrium and uncertainty.

Then all of sudden Diego landed us into thinking about programming: when simple rules are laid out, we can actually mimick or simulate life in other forms: whether through 3D art, computer graphics and gaming! Woooonnnderful...lIke tadddaaaah, a bulb lights up my brain. What a fix! Some kind of wasabe through my nose up to my brain. Ooooohhhhhhh.

Of course, on the side I sketched/ scribbled a moving image of Diego in my brain, doing this lecture in his own special way. In between writing on th whiteboard and pressing on his laptop keys, he'd hum sweet sounding tunes. He would pause and pretend to accommodate our ideas but gently point out which ones are worth pursuing. I remember that he even laid out one essential rule: no stupid answers. He managed to pull a lecture which was relaxed yet substantive (at least to me).
Whew! Can Diego live and teach longer at UPOU so my children can learn from him?
I’m back on the ground as a student with these questions:  What I'd like to find out in the end: How will the local culture and student ideas blend and contribute to the totalilty of the Biomodd installation which can perhaps represent a bit of who we are? How will the collaboration be like? How will Biomodd Philippines be similar to/different from previous versions Biomodd?

ENERGY= [Greater] Capacity 2Do Work


Reposting fr 2009
http://www.biomodd.net/lba2/updates/blog/energygreatercapacitytodowork

I was trying to adjust my brain a bit as last night, our teacher, this Librero was some kind of wishgiver as he played my faves with the UPOU band. But since I know this guy a bit and I heart him as a reliable colleague/ community site bud,  it wasn't hard for me to just be there as a student.

AFDL is just as gifted and blended-brained like  into Diego. Earlier the Biomodd project we were exchanging about  how he will fit in with the team.  I was confident his brains would fit but I wondered about his unassuming ways.  He himself admittedly labels himself as a 'Syano' (=probinsyano=provincial).   He was fondly christened "King" by his followers  for a reason. And this I see: that students can easily relate with him and I, as UP faculty with zero knowledge on  Gaming and with a bits of  grade schoolish  Science came to class  assured that this   teacher's height will not intimidate me for sure! But his beauty, oh well, such as it is. That he can't help and besides I'm quite content with my looks.

Librero's talk on alternative sources of energy +issues related was  sufficient to keep my tired body/brain going. Our teacher was able to draw from his obvious area of expertise and personal knowledge. He delivered it in some kind of informative storytelling. I was able to clarify the basic content I needed for me to discern this: my school kids now have the perfect hooks for a third science driven inquiry learning project:
    What's  on Earth?!?
    - an inquiry into the earth's resources,
    - how these generate energy 
    - and how we can use these wisely. 
I'm seeing threads in my school's  learning projects--it is definitely Science... way to go!

Librero's  style is simple as he was getting things across by reassuring us that we do know something and it's his job to clarify a few things, with the goal of having a common  perspective: How does energy  fit into  Biomodd ?
Of course I couldn't think like a scientist even after that interesting video  he allowed us to view (and I got a copy for free!) The group talked about heat and how it can be generated and maximized as part of the installation. My mind was somewhere else, though--I was trying to recall Prof. Sol Hidalgo's (UPOU colleague) very own  "kinetic molecular theory of learning"
This is how I understood it: that learning among a group of adults can  be energized and  maximized in some kind of chemical-molecular manner.

And this is how I was translating her theory to  Biomodd:
It's a fact. My classmates and I can never  get rid ourselves of this  Biomodd talk.
It clearly is in our system. It has been a source of inspiration to most --some kind of stored energy to be "kineticized"  every time people get into the lab and do work--all these exchanges in our course generate energy--some kind of growing capacity to do work. Work for what and work for whom? Obviously now it has come to a point where it just has to move forward in ways the core didn't predict at all from the start.
But the greater challenge is this:  the course has ended and where do we take it from here?
 
My mind was back to the group as now they were  concerned about the purposes of Biomodd and some kind of public statement it seeks to get across. This is what I tried to communicate, to some extent:  that Biomodd does not necessarily have to present itself as an art piece meant to issue a single public statement.  To my mind, artists may have specific purposes for their art which will not necessarily come across to its viewers. These purposes may even change over time. In the same way,  viewers of the art piece will  have their  own  personal take at  it. It may provoke an unexpected reaction. Personal meanings may sink in to some a bit much later. It may be even nothing to others. There is however one thing we can try to do as I  see Biomodd as a means for people, most of all children to wonder about, to ask questions, to raise eyebrows--just that. The fact that something of this scale shall be displayed at our National Museum is enough to awaken us in different ways. 
Hence, one aspect  we do have the benefit of showing is this: the people/ process behind the piece-- What's the source energy which propelled the team to get to where they are now? How was this energy utillized in different ways? What energy remains beyond all these? What energy can this installation pass on to the Filipino youth?

The last session of the course has come to an end. Whether we are a renewable remains to be seen or perhaps unseen as individually we are like molecules  redefining our identities as we go back to our usual lives. Beyond Biomodd, I ask:  will each of us have renewed energy--a greater capacity to do work and love every bit of ourselves  and others than before?