Sunday, August 26, 2012

dis/THISConnected

DISTHISconnected

For weeks, the Philippines has been under terrible rains and floods. But from where I was, that is within the University campus residential area, electricity was up and running so I continued on with my usual work of doing online academic advising for a population of undergraduate students. I was THIS connected with work in the midst of heavy rains yet remained disconnected with the rest of my countrymen.

I only realized it too late that I in fact scheduled for a live class at WizIQ with  my bunch of students in a course I teach at the UP Open University. I checked my email for any class registration sent though WizIQ and my Moodle site for any kind of response from my students. I  had only 1 prospective student attendee who confirmed participation as seen in my WizIQ class/course page.  I was uncertain whether to cancel or not. I can easily do that in one click through the cancel class/change class time features of WizIQ, but I held back. At one end,  I figured, 'Was I thaaat insensitive to even push through with a live class?', given that maybe some of my students were flooded, with no electricity, or out in the cold. But then, how are they, really? There I was fussing over a class instead of watching the news.

But I decided to push through, just like always, because that is what it means to teach, especially now that my teaching isn't just about setting up activities and discussion forum at my Moodle course site. Discovering a videoconferencing platform in an eLearning community of WizIQ has given me an  alternative way to teach online and keep myself connected with my students real time, making the whole experience of blended online learning worth doing.

And so, what I expected to be just 1 attendee, surprisingly became 12 =).  9-13 student attendees is the range I have in my live classes on any given day. But in this kind of weather, 12 students is  a wonder!  In what can  possibly be chaotic, for more than 60 minutes or so, turned out to be calm, as we were all together actively learning because lifelong learning simply has to go on. I think more than the idea of  holding a class together, was the real chance to assure ourselves that we shall get through this class alive and get through more days of rains if we have to. This opportunity to be online and live at that, was some affirmation we all needed. The virtual class kept us connected THIS MUCH, and it felt good to be alive.

One time, I was supposed to share a few words on the use of synchrononous platforms and its pedagogical value with the rest of my colleagues in the university.   I was not able to get that chance due to a prior committment. Now should be a good time to explain. Well, for one academics love to do that---find some logical, theoretical, pedagogical (or more '-cals' and '-isms', the better) to justify why we do the things we do, for every little decision we make, every step of the way, as do all in government institutions such as my university. Unlike my fellow professors,  a big part of me is really just about being a teacher. When I know and feel that something is worth trying because it feels right, I go for it, knowing that I have my students in mind. It's enough for me that I can visualize it happening and I don't need to rack my brains for any theory to support it. The cycle of action-reflection is quite intuitive among teachers who are expected to think on their toes and make quick decisions if it means keeping students attentive and engaged.

When I first learned about WizIQ through a live demo session and tutorials available, I immediately tried it with gradeschoolers. It was like having a face to face class--I was present through the chatbox, audio-mic and ppt visuals, and my students were buzzing away on the whiteboard and chatbox.  Then after attending and observing teachers teach in WizIQ, I finally scheduled my first series of live classes with grad-level students at the university. All I can say is that, through synchronous modes such as the WizIQ virtual classroom, I became more connected with my students and myself  as a teacher.  There is value in getting immediate feedback from a number of students whom to me represent the class as a whole.

With ^Anitha Devi at ELT@I,Chennai

On several occasions in my life as a teacher among young learners, the gut feel of things have driven me to experiment, and most often, I get something in return. The returns are more than what I expected or predicted.
 The more-than-what-I-expected or -predicted-part was I found myself pursuing research on teaching presence in synchronous platforms to find  a logical and theoretically based excuse to observe exemplary online teachers and learn from them.  This research experience has brought me places where I can share and network with fellow teachers. In my last out of the country conference at ELT@I Chennai, I had the chance to see Anitha Devi, a co-presentor at the 2012 Free Online Conference organized by Dr Nellie Deutsch of IT4ALL, with WizIQ as our platform to present out papers LIVE.
 Little did I know that Anitha, Nellie and I will be together in 1 face to face conference, and realtime at that, while having Kallol Mukherjee, my WizIQ webstreaming coach, in the same conference recording the whole event, LIVE.
      ELT@I Conference Live Webstreaming through WizIQ, 
c/o Kallol Mukherjee, Coordinator-Academic Liaisons, WizIQ
 
A few days later, there I was at the World Education Summit in Delhi to share my second paper with other professors of the Research Education Forum of Digital Learning.  I had the chance to reconnect with my first WizIQ demoteacher, Mr Kalyan Sarkar, now the Director for Academic Liaisons at WizIQ. All these chance encounters, after 1 year of exchanging ideas online from different parts of the world, are made possible only through technology.
     @the World Education Summit,
with Kalyan Sarkar (L), Director for Academic Liaisons, WizIQ


I must say, in this world when teaching and learning comes with more ease due to advances in technology, getting THIS connected with my students in the midst of calamity, and moreso with folks from other parts of the world, brings me joy. I never thought that teaching...and active learning can get me this far. And in the near future, what more?!

 

Sunday, August 12, 2012

The 'L' Word

I'd never thought I'd have to confront this word again. Thanks to JB, an AA student who started posting stuff at her FB which made me feel like a granny! @43. Let me muse about this thing-a-ma-word called LOVE.

JB goes this way: Mahal kita, mahal mo siya pero may mahal siyang iba. Hindi ba pwedeng mahal kita, mahal mo ko, at bahala na siya sa buhay niya? - Jose Rizal on Twitter. =)) In English= I love you, you love him. Can't it just be "I love you and you love me" and to hell with her!-- Jose Rizal on Twitter.

I go: Hmmm baka akala mo lang love hinahanap mo, lol. Hindi hinahanap yun, kung andyan andyan, kung wala, move on. Natrapik lang o binaha si love marahil. Hahabol din yan like everything else in life. I'm such a lola!= In English= Hmmm, perhaps you think it's love you are searching for but it's  actually not, lol. One does not search for it. It is there for the taking if in fact it is there at all. If it ain't there, move on. This love got caught on traffic or some flood in Manila. It's gonna catch up with you anyway, like everything else in life.

Yes, @43, I'm glad to have experienced love of all kinds, with different folks=friends; all forms=erotic kind, romantic kind, unconditional kind; all levels=I don't really have to get into this. More than anything, I think I love the idea of love or being in love or even realizing that  it wasn't love after all, but some kind of lush, which can still turn to love depending on what you do.

Love to me is energy. You can avoid it but I'd rather you meet it head on and see it for what it really is. Observe the flow and decide what to do with it.  

Love=energy=capacity to do work. It needs fuel=action. Or just acknowledge it is there and no need to desperately fan it to keep it alive. Enjoy having it and not necessarily holding on to it so you can have space for other forms of energy to experience  life.

Love can be contained in the brain or the heart if it isn't one's place to nurture it. If you'd like it to be around for some time, then do something--express it=release; translate it=do creative work; refract=do another kind of work;  or reflect=love yourself...reciprocate=keep on doing the work; cuz work=play&learn and get something in return; pay it forward=love others in your own special way; transmit it like some chakra=the magic of touch, hugs and kisses. Those who love you back, or remember it, well and good. Those who do not, just as well and good.

Once I tried so hard to claim that I love God, but then it was difficult cuz it cannot be truly matched. Instead now, I choose to accept and be thankful by still loving my children, my Vicky boy, my work, good friends and of course, myself.

And oh yes, this is my rational and emotional self in one,  saying that the 'L' word isn't so hard to say  after all. =)

Friday, August 10, 2012

Coming Home

I was in India for 9 days or so. It felt really good to be there that I hardly missed home. There, I had  glimpses of life through story bits shared by women, experiences which are far from my own. I thought I'd come home feeling bad or wishing that I could have chosen to live my life differently--single so I could easily do what I wanted without having to think about a relationship, have the kind of fun I have always wanted and be answerable just to myself, or a life which will allow me to freely roam the earth without worry and just take care of me.

Quite the opposite happened. Coming home all the more proved to me that indeed, I have a happy life here. My children give me so much joy, and my husband keeps things light and leaves me feeling safe and secure. My school and my jobs reassure me that I have made the right choices in life.

I would not have my life any other way. It took a bit of courage and risk- taking to experience "LIFE" and embrace the kind of weird and strange woman that I am.  But it took me longer years, to snap out of the idea that I perhaps I was not meant to have kids.  Really, it was all in my mind. With a learned perspective of objectivity and rationality, plus a dose of humor I've always had, and appreciation for beauty and the possibility of God, I continue on and don't have to take myself seriously all the time.

Now, at 43, I come home to my loved ones and come home to me. I feel more together than ever. And because I am 43 and soon to be 60, that means I can never take my life and that of others for granted.