Ok, so I am doing my best to go for this Jan 2014 intake, despite possible risks involved. I still am using my spiritual thinking hat...at least. I continue to hold on to the following tried and tested beliefs:
- Everything in life has a purpose.
- I do not meet people by accident.
- God has a special plan and he shall grant the desires of your heart.
- It's all connected... this circle of life.
-Let go....and let God.
With the above, I also believe that every human being is gifted with a rational mind capable of deciding on matters. We must come up with our decisions based on what is observable. And so I do these:
Plan A: January 2014 Intake
Positive+
-I will start with the higher studies I set myself to do
-This is tenure=Life At UPOU forever--which is quite ok
-I will have time to learn on my own and gain more life skills
Risks involved
-it will require me to go for loans which I am not be prepared for realistically
-that my Study Grant from UP shall be disapproved for some reason
-greater pressure on my part to handle everything at the same time
Negative_-
-I wont be able to concentrate well due to other commitments I have at UPOU (current load)
Plan B: January 2015 Intake
Positive +
-It will give me time to process funds, visa, loans and save up
-This is tenure=Life@UPOU forever which is still ok
-if Miranda passes Beacon, it is still good time for me to assist in this transition
-I have time to organize my home for Mauro's needs
-Vic can have time to apply for scholarship
Risks involved--
- bigger chance that my Study Grant from UP shall be disapproved due to age limitation
Negative-
-I may give up on UPOU entirely or maybe not necessarily
From the above, I have greater risks for Plan B, but with more positive gains.
Plan A has greater pressure on my part which I may not be able to handle.
Even the most rational mind and objective forms of thinking
should allow me to discern other matters, along with this friendly advice given by my best friend:
WHERE DOES GOD WANT US TO BE? We bloom where we are planted. If this is where you should be now, that's where you should be. If He wanted you somewhere else, the opportunity would present itself CLEARLY.
In other words if Plan A is a better plan, it should produce these in the first place:
- an acceptable visa
-an ideal flight
-700k funds
-a scenario which will allow me to handle work pressure
And funny that despite my efforts to think objectively, I still cry. I am just overwhelmed and overtaken whenever I have to make big decisions and/ or arrive at certain crossroads.
The thing is, either or, I should be ready to say hello to Life at QUT or just say Goodbye to QUT and hello new life outside UPOU.
I am settled with the fact that I know I will still be happy with caring for my children, getting involved in their education in whatever form it will take, and that Vic is always around to see these through with me. I am still loved@44, soon to be 45.
- Everything in life has a purpose.
- I do not meet people by accident.
- God has a special plan and he shall grant the desires of your heart.
- It's all connected... this circle of life.
-Let go....and let God.
With the above, I also believe that every human being is gifted with a rational mind capable of deciding on matters. We must come up with our decisions based on what is observable. And so I do these:
Plan A: January 2014 Intake
Positive+
-I will start with the higher studies I set myself to do
-This is tenure=Life At UPOU forever--which is quite ok
-I will have time to learn on my own and gain more life skills
Risks involved
-it will require me to go for loans which I am not be prepared for realistically
-that my Study Grant from UP shall be disapproved for some reason
-greater pressure on my part to handle everything at the same time
Negative_-
-I wont be able to concentrate well due to other commitments I have at UPOU (current load)
Plan B: January 2015 Intake
Positive +
-It will give me time to process funds, visa, loans and save up
-This is tenure=Life@UPOU forever which is still ok
-if Miranda passes Beacon, it is still good time for me to assist in this transition
-I have time to organize my home for Mauro's needs
-Vic can have time to apply for scholarship
Risks involved--
- bigger chance that my Study Grant from UP shall be disapproved due to age limitation
Negative-
-I may give up on UPOU entirely or maybe not necessarily
From the above, I have greater risks for Plan B, but with more positive gains.
Plan A has greater pressure on my part which I may not be able to handle.
Even the most rational mind and objective forms of thinking
should allow me to discern other matters, along with this friendly advice given by my best friend:
WHERE DOES GOD WANT US TO BE? We bloom where we are planted. If this is where you should be now, that's where you should be. If He wanted you somewhere else, the opportunity would present itself CLEARLY.
In other words if Plan A is a better plan, it should produce these in the first place:
- an acceptable visa
-an ideal flight
-700k funds
-a scenario which will allow me to handle work pressure
And funny that despite my efforts to think objectively, I still cry. I am just overwhelmed and overtaken whenever I have to make big decisions and/ or arrive at certain crossroads.
The thing is, either or, I should be ready to say hello to Life at QUT or just say Goodbye to QUT and hello new life outside UPOU.
I am settled with the fact that I know I will still be happy with caring for my children, getting involved in their education in whatever form it will take, and that Vic is always around to see these through with me. I am still loved@44, soon to be 45.
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